And, also.

I have been such a colossal biatch to my family lately, I decided to buy something pretty for the dinner table (relationship between two concepts- minimal). Something about the fact that flowers are living brings me great joy. These are the flowers I want to carry down the aisle at my wedding. Well, not the exact ones I purchased today. They will be long gone (so it goes). But I want calla lilies in my hands at my wedding, and thats the real moral of the story here.

Another question.

Am I having a slow breakdown or am I rebuilding?

"I've never loved somebody fully, always one foot on the ground. By protecting myself truly, I got lost in the sounds I hear in my mind."

Lost and found.

Sometimes you stumble across something that is perfect.

"I'm afraid I just blue myself"

The neighborhood where I am staying in Acton, Mass is exactly as I imagined it would be. Picturesque and full of barren trees. The Oppenheim house is extremely cozy. I am equally tempted to fall asleep in each room, a direct result of the warm colors and soft couches.

My favorite part of the trip so far, besides getting to meet the strangers with whom I have been in communication with for years, was absolutely Harvard. If there is one thing that the past seven months has taught me, it is that I am not comfortable unless I am in, on, or around a school. And what better of a school to immerse yourself in than Harvard- even if its only for a few minutes? It was gorgeous, as to be expected. The bookstore across the road from the campus was impressive as well. It reminded me of one that we visited in NYC next to Lincoln Square.

Boston is no New York. Nothing is like New York, for better or for worse, but I will say that Boston is definitely more manageable. It doesn't overwhelm a person the way that New York might. I didn't get to see a lot, but what I did see was definitely "cute", for lack of a better word. I have heard the Boston accent. Boston wasn't visually what I expected- it was much cleaner and, again, "cuter".

I have really gotten a chance to lounge and eat on this vacation. What more could I ever want?

I will say this though... vacationing reminds me of past vacationing, and that makes me feel a little bit lonely.

Nanananan VCUT

I don't have anything to say. I'm too busy...going. I am watching Eat Pray Love. That's whats happening with that.

My Happy Place

Maybe my happy place is where it's always been, which is comfortably lounging surrounded by books, magazines, and movies.

Marathons I am going to have:

The OC

Grey's Anatomy

Mad Men

Modern Family

30 Rock

Twilight

Geez! So busy :)

Things to Reflect On

Things I am reflecting on:

1. How I should be writing a novel, not a blog. And yet...

2. Sonny's. Because food has been my only priority as of late.

3. My wonderful weekend in Amelia Island with Josh. It was nice to get away. And incase you are wondering, yes, I did sleep a full 12 hours in the soft hotel bed. It was everything I hoped for and more.

4. PA school and this blog I found from a girl who went through PA school. It's really shedding some light on the whole process.

5. My allergies. Are they real? ARE THEY? The answer is yes. They most certainly are.

6. How wonderful today's weather was. This is how October SHOULD feel. It was absolute perfection.

7. 500 Days of Summer. I love Zooey Deschanel.

8. I should hopefully start volunteering at Shands Jax soon. Infant Cuddling! I hope that it is what I am imagining it to be- which is a way to meet nurses who are experienced in Women's Health and Pediatrics and who can talk to me about the career. It probably won't be like that at all though. At least it'll be hours for my resume!

9. I need a PA to shadow.

10. 10 is a good, round number.